tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1463140466148415482023-06-20T22:04:12.560-07:00Losing It and Getting FitAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00460304676601400729noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-146314046614841548.post-11372964524812284472016-12-16T06:09:00.000-08:002016-12-16T06:09:25.015-08:00A Little BackgoundWho am I and how did I get here?<br />
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Well, I am a 30-something wife and mom. I have lead an active and fairly healthy lifestyle for the past 15 years or so. In fact, I was always active in high school, never had any weight issues and then when I turned 21 and discovered the night life, I packed on about 60 lbs instantly. When I was 24, I decided enough was enough. I cut out all fast food and walked for an hour every night after work. Then I met my husband and moved to Milwaukee. It was here that I discovered my love of running and lifting weights. I had lost about 30 lbs prior to moving here, and then lost an additional 20 by running, lifting weights and attending weight watchers meetings, and being strict with my plan.<br />
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Fast forward a couple of years and I got pregnant with my son. Wouldn't you know it, despite my best efforts (meaning I stayed active, but lets be real.... I was eating for 2...hundred, right!) I put on those same 60 lbs. I have hardly any pictures from when I was pregnant. I was mad at myself and embarrassed. My husband has several younger cousins, and the ones that have had kids all remained trim and cute. I looked like a old lady; a beached whale.<br />
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Anyway, as soon as my son was born, I started walking with him daily. At about 5 weeks, I started back at the gym, walking on the treadmill and lifting light weights. The weight came right off and I went on my merry way.... I got serious about my running and ran 3 half marathons. I was dedicated to my 5 am gym workouts. I was feeling good, and fairly confident.<br />
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Then 2015 came along..... They year started out just fine. Than in March, I received some very exciting news. I had a long lost brother. How awesome! We hit it off and have been close ever since. But not even 2 weeks after finding this out, my husband was attacked, robbed and car jacked at a gas station right near our house. Thankfully, he was ok. but how awful. On top of that, it happened while our son and I were on an airplane traveling to Arizona. 6 weeks later, we received news that my company was dissolving. Crap. I was making a decent wage, and working from home. Thank God I had finished my college degree a few years earlier. I started my job search immediately, and was offered a great job with a great company close to home. I was so excited! I went in for both a drug screen and a mammo on the same day.<br />
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The next day, the mammo came back suspicious, thrusting us in to a scary and uncertain world. Testing, ultrasounding, MRI-ing, more biopsying, and then finally a diagnostic lumpectomy. It came back as non cancerous. PHEW. A week after my lumpectomy, I started my dream job. Only by day 2 to realize it was not my dream job. The boss, who I had come to love from all my interviewing, and we emailed regularly, was a micro managing nut. It was not the job she'd told me about in my interview. Well, it was. Except I had no creative freedom. I had to do things exactly how she did them. Even though we all know, we learn and do things differently to get to the same outcome. Pretty much every day I was sending a distressful email to my mom and sister, and crying on the phone to my best friend. I hated it. I'd pull in in the morning and see her car and my day would be tanked already.....<br />
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This put me into a deep depression. I felt like, if I can't do this job, how on earth will I be able to parent, be a friend, be a wife.. sister, daughter... I felt so unlike me. My self-confidence spiraled to NOTHING. I couldn't even get together with my friends for a friendly game of cards against humanity. I felt like everyone was laughing at me for the card I threw in. Not at my card. at ME. I felt like a failure. I would try to exercise and it was like, who am I? I can't do this!<br />
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Last December, I made the decision to leave after the new year. Come hell or high water, I was out of there. I had taken my boss's abuse for 5 months, and that was enough. I ended up taking a job with a hospital billing department. While I loved the team, it was a substantial pay cut. We knew it was temporary, as I had hopes of moving up the ladder. However, then I found out it was a 6 month wait before you could apply for something else, and they were very slow to move on things. At this point, I'd developed serious anxiety and depression. I sat at my desk in just a constant state of ruminating thoughts and panic. It was horrible. I decided I couldn't wait out the 6 months and began a job search. After a couple of months, I have landed my dream job, with my dream company.<br />
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As a result of all of this, I am about 40 lbs heavier than ever. I feel like I was just going through the motions. How sad. Last night, I joined Weight Watchers again. They've reformatted their plan, and the meeting style.<br />
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This is the beginning. I am GOING to do this. I want to lose 50 lbs, but I am going to focus on 5-10 lb increments. I am slowly getting ME back. I miss me. The me who used to laugh and enjoy life... where is she? I miss her.<br />
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My first meeting felt like such a great support group. I loved it. I am excited to go back for more. And to keep updating this blog. Pictures and more to come soon!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00460304676601400729noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-146314046614841548.post-2772250370828607482016-12-05T08:59:00.000-08:002016-12-05T08:59:17.153-08:00Hi! and Welcome!Hi,<br />
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Welcome to my blog. My name is Carrie, and I am here to start LOSING IT AND GETTING FIT!<br />
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Once upon a time, I got really healthy. I was eating properly, and exercising daily. I felt so fit and confident. Now.... not so much. I plan to use this blog, along with changing my diet and exercising more, to lose weight. I have a lofty goal, but I think rather than focus on the big, I am going to focus on the small.....<br />
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So, who am I? Well, I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter.... I have been married to Brett since 2004 and we have a son, Will who is 10. We reside in the Milwaukee, WI area. I grew up in a small rural town on the west side of Wisconsin. I miss it a lot.<br />
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I am an avid reader, and do love fitness even though I've been lacking it lately. You can often find me reading a book, working on a cross stitch, or working out in my basement gym. I am also a volunteer at my son's school and with his activities. My husband and I are the den leaders for cub scouts, my husband also coaches his little league team, while I run the administrative side of things :)<br />
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So, as you can see, we are active. I want to become more active, lose weight and be a more healthy role-model for my son.<br />
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This week, I am doing a lot of prep work, including I'll be getting my 'before' pics and measurements together.<br />
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I will have weekly updates to include my weigh in, my weekly workouts and meals. Lets make this fun!!!!<br />
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